Forgot this place existed! HA

So, I kinda forgot about this webpage up until I was telling a buddy about Sons of Anarchy and how he had to give it five episodes before he quit watching. The fifth episode is the infamous Fire Or Knife episode... thus triggering my memory about a website named after that ONE episode. So here we are over 6 months since my last post. Happily married, happily running a decently successful video company, the happy owner of a slightly mental dog, and still teaching.

So whats been going on? Caty and I just hit six months of marriage on Christmas. First Christmas married. Its been a blast but at the same time it has been DRAINING. All over the place for 4 straight days made for some great sleep on Monday night. The Christmas with the Dearing's and Perkins/Holmes was the usual fun filled day of making fun of Justin. I love my family, blessed to have them! The Skinner and Davis Christmases were awesome as well. I feel very lucky to have found a wife with two families that show not only her but also me how much they care for us at the drop of a hat. Its been a great vacation from work.

I started working on my health a few months back by doing something I said I would never do. I joined Weight Watchers. I have no clue why I was so ashamed to admit it for the longest time but I guess I felt it was something for chicks. It works. I am almost down 20 pounds lost with 25 to 30 more to go. Can't say that I was 'successful' over the holiday but I did go into the break with something that David Hewitt, a friend from church told me. Christmas is only a day of eating, not a 2 week vacation. While I may have celebrated eating Christmas more that one day, I definitely didn't go nuts like I have in the past. Adding 7 to 10 pounds to my waistline was the NORM for me during the holidays in the past. Not so much this year. I am currently weighing 255, which is just 2.5 pounds more than I did when I got out of school. Still have the rest of the week to get back to where I was. The goal was to maintain over the break. Its achievable.

I must say, I have a buddy who has been kicking some major ass with weight loss. He had one of the weight loss surgeries and I have seen MANY of those fail in the past, not with this guy. He is probably showing of the strongest discipline I have seen ever now that the surgery is over. Who can SERIOUSLY sit at The Melting Pot and not touch a single thing. Props Blake.

So coming up... The Bulls return to defend our championship from last season. I hope to be a full 35 to 40 pounds lighter than I was during the championship series. Its quite possible. First game is the first week of March. Also, thinking of running the Cowtown 10k, I ran a 5k about 5 weeks into my diet and didn't realize how much easier running was with a simple 10 pound lose. The Cowtown is February 25th. So I have two months to get ready.

Well, thats about all I got. It may be 6 months before I post again... who knows...

Fire or Knife... Tonight I will take Knife!

-Dearing

IT's been awhile...

My apologies. I have been getting ready for summer, wedding, a week on the beach a million miles away, and then of course trying to turn myself back into a gym rat and failing. Many of you know I spent last summer working on a project for the district without getting any sort of payment, I just did it for my students. Let me clarify, if asked I would probably still do something free like this again for my students... but not this summer.

This summer is about 2 things. Caty and my new business. Mainly Caty though. In 9 days I get married to my best friend. I could really rattle on about friendship and my current view on friendships for a few thousand words right now but I won't. I may give ya the cliff notes later in this post. But I am genuinely excited that I AM marrying my best friend. The person that without a word can look at me and know where I am at... know how I feel... and usually fix it or realize that its a me thing and let me fix it on my own. ANYWAYS... 9 days and a women invades my house, my life, and my money. I will tell you that does not scare me one bit. I am tired of hearing things like "you will begin to die a little each day after you get married" or "Well your life is over" or "Have fun at the funeral, I mean wedding"... I am sorry if your marriage blows ass, mine seems like it will be just fine. We actually like each other. I am looking forward to the ceremony and all our family and friends coming together to party in our honor, but I am SERIOUSLY looking forward to the next day when we post up on a plane for 9 hours and get the HELL outta town. I love everyone involved in this wedding, I am thankful for each of you, and I promise none of you are annoying me or frustrating me in any way, but I totally understand why an immediate honeymoon is so vital now. I am looking forward to seeing Caty just release all the stress and energy built up from work and the wedding when we get there. I predict she will sleep 15 hours the first day, and I won't even REMOTELY try to wake her up.

I am so happy that some of my old school friends from college are getting to make the trip up for the bachelor party and the wedding. I have had some major issues with the definition of friendship lately and I still haven't really cleared all that up. I admit sometimes I am a shitty friend (ex. I told a friend that we would be DOWN for the Mavs Parade, while totally forgetting a HUGE thing I need to do tomorrow for work and wedding stuff, and I had to cancel... I Suck), I admit I need a personal assistant to walk by me and write down all the events or things I have to be at so I will stop double booking, I admit sometimes I want to sit and my desk and I want to ignore the world while I read about the Mavs NBA Championship (did you really think I wouldn't sneak that in there somewhere). But I will also admit that at the first sign of struggle or hardship in a friend's life, I will jump to help them or check on them anyway I know how.......

Wow, I just erased a five paragraph rant I went on about this whole idea of friendship and what it means to be a 'friend' and care about people genuinely... I realized I sounded like an ass and kinda bitchy... it's probably because its close to 2 am and I am running on 4 hours of good sleep. I erased it. It felt good to really get it out there even if nobody will ever get the shot to read it.

It's alittle tense in here. Anyone heard that joke about LeBron James and the time I asked for change for a dollar... he said he only had three quarters in him. Ha Get it... Yeah Funny. Look a Duck....

OUT

Summer needs to hurry.

I am usually pretty good about keeping motivated at work, but summer seriously can not get here soon enough. I am over rude students, endless paperwork, and all the babbling about the future of education. I just need a few months off to marry Caty, go on a vacation or two, sleep, work on my health, shooting, editing, making money, and SLEEEEEEPING!

I need some time off to just focus on this whole idea I have been working on for a few months now. I want to start working with wedding videos, corporate videos, or any videos people might need. I have the cameras, new computer, new software, and all that good stuff... but now I need the clients. The marketing side of things is where I am clueless. Sad thing is, I was a marketing minor and don't remember a thing about it! It does help though that my fiance has constantly been telling me that she knows the money and clients will start rolling in because I am too damn talented for them not too. I guess her encouragement is one of the few things that has kept me from folding before it starts. I have designed, redesigned, and re-redesigned my business card, I have worked countless hours on an unpublished website, and I have damn near begged some people to let me shoot their wedding for CHEAP just to get the experience and demo out there. It will happen... if it doesn't, I will at least have the awesome equipment to keep serving the church I am at and document my new family in video. There won't be anyone with better home videos than the Dearings! HA

If anyone out there knows anyone that needs a commercial, wedding, anything shot and edited... please send them my email address! justin.dearing@me.com

And I'm pissed again.

Shocker I know. I started the Insanity program and did good for about 2 days. The eating program is tough and requires so much freaking prep work. The workouts are shorter than P90x, yet I still can't fit 40 minutes into my day to do them. And the success I saw early is DEFINITELY long gone!

I am done with the excuses, I am now to a point where I won't finish the 60 days before the wedding, but I am going to restart this damn thing on Monday. No Excuses even if I have to get up at 5 am to do the effin workouts I will. Not Happy with myself at all.

Sincerely,

Pissed Off Fat Kid

Insanity is..... insane

That makes me feel really stupid typing that in the title. I have had some friends tell me that this workout was the most serious thing they have done ever. My initial response... How hard could a damn video be? Very DAMN Hard. WOW.

I am two days into the program and I feel like I got hit by truck from last nights workout but I also feel more awake and energetic than I have in months. Its crazy.

I mentioned in a previous blog that I was running a 5k and then would be beginning this program. The 5k wore me out and left me hurting. Caty and I finished together in 36 minutes. It was almost emotional for both of us since we have both struggled with getting getting off the couch and back on track. Caty has been hitting the gym with a trainer for a few weeks, very proud of her. I know that about 2 miles into the race I was at my breaking point, especially after taking off as fast as I could like an idiot. Caty caught me and forced me to finish with her. It sucked. I almost puked.

I also mentioned that I would be posting my before stats and possibly my before pics on here to motivate me and piss me off more than I already was. I am definitely posting the before stats but not sure about the pic since I don't know who comes across this site.

Before Weight - 268 lbs. (265 as of this morning) ----- -3 lbs.

I am pissed.

Who am I pissed at? Myself. I have let myself yet again get into horrible shape. It's pretty sad when I am damn near gassed when I have to run out a double in baseball. Its sad that I have just turned into a lazy ass.

70-something days out of the wedding... I am starting to fix this crap. Insanity is coming and I am running a 5k on Saturday. A 5k that I haven't even remotely 'trained' for. I figure that embarrassment will be just enough to really push me over the edge to get rolling with this. Look for my beginning stats soon on here... as embarrassing as that will be, I am posting the stats because it will just piss me off more.

Here goes nothing.....

Financial Peace? Is that possible?

Caty and I have been raised by parents that were pretty good with money. We both made it out of college with no student loans, no huge debt in credit cards, or any 'major' debt otherwise. I have a mortgage, minor Best Buy Credit Debt and a car payment. Not bad for a guy that could have easily ran up thousands in debt on electronics or Credit Card.

So if you were looking at us as a couple, we seem to be pretty good with money right? Yeah, she may be good but me personally I am the guy that never saved a dollar. I used to make some serious money on a nightly basis while I was bartending and all I have to show from that is a damaged liver. Caty and I started Financial Peace University with Dave Ramsey. I must admit the first few sessions left me feeling like a complete and utter failure when it comes to money. I have started the whole budgeting and 'watching money' stuff and I do slightly feel better about myself now.

It is officially 1 week out from payday and I am actually not stretching every dollar yet! I am ok with that. I just need to get into a mindset that I realize this is a every month thing. I rarely stick to things (diets, workout, reading, etc) so this may be my biggest struggle of the whole program.